My heart pines to live a forward life, backwards. To know all that will happen and to choose tribulation anyway.
But alas, our lives do not work in such ways. Instead, our hearts ache, our minds fear, and our souls panic. And then we break plans, we break hearts, and we create again.
Though its true that life itself moves forward, the universe only winks in reverse.
My Life is Greige 
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